I will be back.

Hello lovely's,
I'm not sure if anyone will actually read this as i've been absent for so long, but i'm starting to get my blogging mojo back and i'm more motivated now to do it. I think i am probably going to take down most of my posts on here, not delete them, just hide them. And pretty much just start again and revamp it a little bit. So hopefully you can all start enjoying my blog again :)

Until then, follow me on instagram :- louisamary and twitter :- @louisamaryy

Love Louisa :)
x

What 2012 has taught me: Idea from Hannahjustyne

Hello lovely's,
I saw this post on 'hannahjustyne's' blog, and thought it was a good idea so decided i wanted to do it :) some of it is quite down and in the dumps, but it ends positive, i promise :)
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So this year started very shitty. I managed to lock my knee, resulting in me needing an operation on it and me not being able to do alot for a couple of months. Within the first week of 2012, i was at what i thought was my all time low, something happened and in the spurr of the moment took an overdose. It was the most selfish thing i had ever done, i didn't think about anyone else at the time, it was the scariest moment of my life and i couldn't believe i had done it. I was fine and i would never try that ever again, but the fact that i had felt low enough in myself to feel that was the only thing to do, must mean i was in a pretty bad place. I found the course i wanted to do, and everything was going against me being able to get on it, money etc.. There was nothing else in the world i wanted to do, or could do.

So i quit my job at clintons in the summer and attempted to move to magaluf, i lasted 2 and a half weeks and didn't particularly enjoy myself, so i gave up and came home. I might have given up, but when i think back, i must have been a pretty strong person to just have the guts to move abroad, on my own. I did the whole airport thing on my own which to me was a massive achievement!

When i came back from magaluf, i still wasn't sure if i was going to be able to get on the course, and i became heavily depressed, but come september, i finally made it onto the course, and because i was that happy i was doing what i want to do for the rest of my life, i overcame my depression, and i can now pretty much completely ignore any bad thoughts that come into my head, which considering i've had depression hanging over me since i was around 15, this is amazing.

My course is going well, but then my mum fell ill, and she's been in and out of hospital which has been very hard, but i've stayed strong for her, and funnily enough, this happening to her has brought me, my mum and my dad alot closer together, so every cloud has a silver lining. Not only was my mum in hospital, my grandma then broke her leg, which made everything harder but as a family we pulled through.

If 2012 has taught me anything, it's that i am a very very ambitious young woman and i am deffinately strong minded and i've learnt to make decisions and stick to my gut instinct. 2012 has been shitty, but i'm starting the year of 2013 in a sparkley dress, and full of alcohol, so bring it on!!

I have so much to look forward too this coming year, and i can't wait.
Please post if you've done this post too, i would love to know how 2012 has been for you.
Love Louisa
x

Christmas, Birthday, and Urban Decay.

Hello lovely's :)

So on the 22nd of December, I turned the big 21! It's come round so fast and it honestly feels like i'm still 18 or something. So I had a lovely carvery with my family and it was beautiful, pictures below..

And at night i had a party, to which i invited over 40 friends, and of which 2 turned up. My sister and her family and my mums best friends family came though so it was worth all the party food :) However when they arrived i was throwing a massive paddy upstairs because i had left my fat pants at my best friends house and i couldn't wear anything because i looked too fat. Hey, it was my birthday, i could cry if i wanted too, and i did :)

I then got over the whole situation once i had got some malibu down me and we went to town and i had a lovely night with the 2 true friends that did actually turn up :)

 Above is my outfit of the night :)

And my make-up :)

 

So what did i get for my birthday? unfortuneatley i haven't photographed any of my presents apart from my main one, if you would like to see let me know.

But i got a beautiful emerald and diamond ring from my grandma which was hers and will now be a family airloom if i ever have children.

 

I got a lovely silver bracelet, a lipsy purse, an airbrush gun (which is yet to come), my trip to magaluf in the summer just been, money and some ted baker makeup, all of which i am very grateful for.

I also got a make-up trolley for college, to be all professional haha! I chose it myself so i knew i was getting it but it's beautiful!

It fits in sooo much stuff :D

 

My big present which i was completely not expecting at all and my face was an absolute picture when i opened it, but it was the Urban Decay Vice Pallette.

 

It really is true, you get what you pay for and the colours are amazing. It opens itself aswell when you press the button, it's just amazing. I will do a proper review on it though.

 

Christmas..

 

Christmas day we all went round to my grandmas cottage, we arrived and sat in her big lounge an opened presents and it was just lovely, i haven't had a big christmas with that much family for a long while and it was just perfect.

 



So as you can see from the picture, i was a tiny bit spoilt. The 2 naked pallettes i just couldn't believe it. I wasn't expecting one after the one on my birthday, nevermind 2! So i was absolutely chuffed to bits! And i am so grateful for the gifts i did get :)

Then i did a make over for my grandma and my auntie, because we had a bit of time to kill before dinner and they wanted to see me in action haha!

 My grandma, she wanted false eyelashes on bless her :)

And my auntie :)

 

Then we had our christmas lunch, and the table was set beautifully! The table was set with little decorations and napkins with each of our names embroided on them, it's those little touches that just made it so special to me.

 

Mmmmm!

 

Then i drank a lot of alcohol, we played charades and it was just the most perfect day :) Just a shame we have to wait another 12 months for the next one. Christmas is my favourite time of the year for definate.

 

I will do reviews on certain things in posts to come :)

 

Happy New Year!